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forgetting his worries and troubles and surrendering to the affectionate hands
and gentle banter of a barber for a prenuptial shave and haircut�拭�The barber¨s�察�
where my feet took me�察�was located near the market�察�on the street of the run´
down house in Aksaray�察�which my late Enishte�察�my aunt and fair Shekure had
quitted years after our childhood。 This was the barber I¨d faced five days ago�察�
my first day back。 When I entered he embraced me and as any good Istanbul
barber would do�察 �rather than asking where the last dozen years had gone�察�
launched into the latest neighborhood gossip�察 �concluding the conversation
with an allusion to the place we would all go at the end of this meaningful
journey called life。
The master barber had aged。 The straight´edged razor he held in his freckled
hand trembled as he made it dance across my cheek。 He¨d given himself over
to drinking and had taken on a pink´plexioned�察 �full´lipped�察 �green´eyed
boy´apprentice!who looked upon his master with awe。 pared with
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twelve years ago�察 �the shop was cleaner and more orderly。 After filling the
hanging basin�察 �which hung from the ceiling on a new chain�察 �with boiling
water�察�he carefully washed my hair and face with water from the brass faucet
at the bottom of the basin。 The old broad basins were newly tinned with no
signs of rust�察 �the heating braziers were clean�察 �and the agate´handled razors
were sharp。 He wore an immaculate silk waistcoat�察�something he was loath to
wear twelve years ago。 I assumed that the elegant apprentice�察�tall for his age
and of slender build�察�had helped bring some order to the shop and its owner�察�
and surrendering myself to the soapy�察�rose´scented and steamy pleasures of a
shave�察 �I couldn¨t help thinking how marriage not only brought new vitality
and prosperity to a bachelor¨s home�察�but to his work and his shop as well。
I¨m not certain how much time had passed。 I melted into the warmth of
the brazier that gently heated the small shop and the barber¨s adept fingers。
With life having suddenly presented me the greatest of gifts today�察 �as if for
free�察 �and after so much suffering�察 �I felt a profound thanks toward exalted
Allah。 I felt an intense curiosity�察 �wondering out of what mysterious balance
this world of His had emerged�察�and I felt sadness and pity for Enishte�察�who lay
dead in the house where�察�a while later�察�I would bee master。 I was readying
myself to spring into action when there was a motion at the always´open
door of the barbershop�此�Shevket� �
Flustered�察�but with his usual self´confidence�察�he held out a piece of paper。
Unable to speak and expecting the worst�察�my insides were chilled as if by an icy
draft as I read�此�
If there isn¨t going to be a bride¨s procession�察�I¨m not getting married!Shekure。
Grabbing Shevket by the arm�察�I lifted him onto my lap。 I would¨ve liked to
have responded to my dear Shekure by writing�察 �As you wish�察�my love� 院�but
what would pen and ink be doing in the shop of an illiterate barber�拭�So�察�with
a calculated reserve�察 �I whispered my response into the boy¨s ear�此 �All right。 ̄
Still whispering�察�I asked him how his grandfather was doing。
^He¨s sleeping。 ̄
I now sense that Shevket�察�the barber and even you are suspicious about me
and my Enishte¨s death ��Shevket�察 �of course�察 �suspects other things as well��。
What a pity� �I forced a kiss upon him�察�and he quickly left�察�displeased。 During
the wedding�察�dressed in his holiday clothes�察�he glared at me with hostility from
a distance。
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Since Shekure wouldn¨t be leaving her father¨s house for mine�察�and I would
be moving into the paternal home as bridegroom�察�the bridal procession was
only fitting。 Naturally�察�I was in no position to bedeck my wealthy friends and
relatives and have them wait at Shekure¨s front gate mounted on their horses
as others might have done。 Even so�察 �I invited two of my childhood friends
whom I¨d run into during my six days back in Istanbul ��one had bee a
clerk like myself and the other was running a bath house�� as well as my dear
barber�察�whose eyes had watered as he wished me happiness during my shave
and haircut。 Mounted upon my white horse�察�which I¨d been riding that first
day�察�I knocked at my beloved Shekure¨s gate as if poised to take her to another
house and another life。
To Hayriye�察 �who opened the gate�察 �I presented a generous tip。 Shekure�察�
dressed in a bright´red wedding gown with pink bridal streamers flowing from
her hair to her feet�察 �emerged amid cries�察 �sobs�察 �sighs ��a woman scolded the
children���察 �outbursts�察 �and shouts of ^May God protect her�察院 �and gracefully
mounted a second white horse which we¨d brought with us。 As a hand´
drummer and shrill zurna piper�察�kindly arranged by the barber for me at the
last minute�察 �began to play a slow bride¨s melody�察 �our poor�察 �melancholy�察 �yet
proud procession set out on its way。
As our horses began to saunter�察�I understood that Shekure�察�with her usual
cunning�察�had arranged this spectacle for the sake of safeguarding the nuptials。
Our procession�察�having announced our wedding to the entire neighborhood�察�
even if only at the last moment�察�had essentially secured everyone¨s approval�察�
thereby neutralizing any future objections to our marriage。 Nevertheless�察�
announcing that we were on the verge of marriage�察 �and having a public
wedding!as if to challenge our enemies�察 �Shekure¨s former husband and his
family!further endangered the whole affair。 Had it been left to me�察�I¨d have
held the ceremony in secret�察 �without telling a soul�察 �without a wedding
celebration�察�I¨d have preferred being her husband first and defending the
marriage afterward。
I led the parade astride my fickle white fairy´tale horse�察�and as we moved
through the neighborhood�察�I nervously watched for Hasan and his men�察�whom
I expected to ambush us from an alleyway or a shadowy courtyard gate。 I
noticed how young men�察 �the elders of the neighborhood and strangers
stopped and waved from door fronts�察 �without pletely understanding all
that was transpiring。 In the small market area we¨d unintentionally entered�察�I
figured out that Shekure had masterfully activated her grapevine�察�and that her
divorce and marriage to me was quickly winning acceptance in the
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neighborhood。 This was evident from the excitement of the fruit´and´vegetable
seller�察 �who without leaving his colorful quinces�察 �carrots and apples for too
long�察�joined us for a few strides shouting ^Praise be to God�察�may He protect
you both�察院 �and from the smile of the woeful shopkeeper and from the
approving glances of the baker�察�who was having his apprentice scrape away the
burnt residue in his pans。 Still�察�I was anxious�察�maintaining my vigil against a
sudden raid�察�or even a word of vulgar heckling。 For this reason�察�I wasn¨t at all
disturbed by the motion of the crowd of money´seeking children that had
formed behind us as we left the bazaar。 I understood from the smiles of
women I glimpsed behind windows�察�bars and shutters that the enthusiasm of
this noisy throng of children protected and supported us。
As I gazed at the road along which we¨d advanced and were now�察 �thank
God�察 �finally winding our way back toward the house�察 �my heart was with
Shekure and her sorrow。 Actually�察�it wasn¨t her misfortune in having to wed
within a day of her father¨s murder that saddened me�察�it was that the wedding
was so unadorned and meager。 My dear Shekure was worthy of horses with
silver reins and ornamented saddles�察�mounted riders outfitted in sable and silk
with gold embroidery�察�and hundreds of carriages laden with gifts and dowry�察�
she deserved to lead an endless procession of pasha¨s daughters�察�sultans and
carriages full of elderly harem women chattering about the extravagances of
days bygone。 But Shekure¨s wedding lacked even the four pole bearers to hold
aloft the red silk canopy that ordinarily protected rich maidens from prying
eyes�察 �for that matter�察 �there wasn¨t even one servant to lead the procession
bearing large wedding candles and tree´shaped decorations ornamented with
fruit�察�gold�察�silver leaf and polished stones。 More than embarrassment�察�I felt a
sadness that threatened to fill my eyes with tears each time the disrespectful
hand´drum and zurna players simply stopped playing when our procession got
swallowed up in crowds of market´goers or servants fetching water from the
fountain in the square because we had no one clearing the way with shouts of
^Here es the bride。 ̄ As we were nearing the house�察�I mustered the courage
to turn in my saddle and gaze at her�察�and was relieved that beneath her pink
bride¨s tinsel and red veil�察 �far from being saddened by all these pitiful
shortings�察 �she seemed hearten