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forgetting his worries and troubles and surrendering to the affectionate hands 
and gentle banter of a barber for a prenuptial shave and haircut�拭�The barber¨s�察�
where my feet took me�察�was located near the market�察�on the street of the run´
down house in Aksaray�察�which my late Enishte�察�my aunt and fair Shekure had 
quitted years after our childhood。 This was the barber I¨d faced five days ago�察�
my first day back。 When I entered he embraced me and as any good Istanbul 
barber  would  do�察 �rather  than  asking  where  the  last  dozen  years  had  gone�察�
launched  into  the  latest  neighborhood  gossip�察 �concluding  the  conversation 
with  an  allusion  to  the  place  we  would  all  go  at  the  end  of  this  meaningful 
journey called life。 
The master barber had aged。 The straight´edged razor he held in his freckled 
hand trembled as he made it dance across my cheek。 He¨d given himself over 
to  drinking  and  had  taken  on  a  pink´plexioned�察 �full´lipped�察 �green´eyed 
boy´apprentice!who  looked  upon  his  master  with  awe。  pared  with 
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twelve  years  ago�察 �the  shop  was  cleaner  and  more  orderly。  After  filling  the 
hanging  basin�察 �which  hung  from  the  ceiling  on  a  new  chain�察 �with  boiling 
water�察�he carefully washed my hair and face with water from the brass faucet 
at the bottom of the basin。 The old broad basins were newly tinned with no 
signs  of  rust�察 �the  heating  braziers  were  clean�察 �and  the  agate´handled  razors 
were sharp。 He wore an immaculate silk waistcoat�察�something he was loath to 
wear twelve years ago。 I assumed that the elegant apprentice�察�tall for his age 
and of slender build�察�had helped bring some order to the shop and its owner�察�
and surrendering myself to the soapy�察�rose´scented and steamy pleasures of a 
shave�察 �I  couldn¨t  help  thinking  how  marriage  not  only  brought  new  vitality 
and prosperity to a bachelor¨s home�察�but to his work and his shop as well。 
I¨m not certain how much time had passed。 I melted into the warmth of 
the brazier that gently heated the small shop and the barber¨s adept fingers。 
With  life  having  suddenly  presented  me  the  greatest  of  gifts  today�察 �as  if  for 
free�察 �and  after  so  much  suffering�察 �I  felt  a  profound  thanks  toward  exalted 
Allah。  I  felt  an  intense  curiosity�察 �wondering  out  of  what  mysterious  balance 
this world of His had emerged�察�and I felt sadness and pity for Enishte�察�who lay 
dead in the house where�察�a while later�察�I would bee master。 I was readying 
myself to spring into action when there was a motion at the always´open 
door of the barbershop�此�Shevket� �
Flustered�察�but with his usual self´confidence�察�he held out a piece of paper。 
Unable to speak and expecting the worst�察�my insides were chilled as if by an icy 
draft as I read�此�
 
If there isn¨t going to be a bride¨s procession�察�I¨m not getting married!Shekure。 
 
Grabbing Shevket by the arm�察�I lifted him onto my lap。 I would¨ve liked to 
have responded to my dear Shekure by writing�察 �As you wish�察�my love� 院�but 
what would pen and ink be doing in the shop of an illiterate barber�拭�So�察�with 
a  calculated  reserve�察 �I  whispered  my  response  into  the  boy¨s  ear�此  �All  right。 ̄ 
Still whispering�察�I asked him how his grandfather was doing。 
^He¨s sleeping。 ̄ 
I now sense that Shevket�察�the barber and even you are suspicious about me 
and  my  Enishte¨s  death  ��Shevket�察 �of  course�察 �suspects  other  things  as  well��。 
What a pity� �I forced a kiss upon him�察�and he quickly left�察�displeased。 During 
the wedding�察�dressed in his holiday clothes�察�he glared at me with hostility from 
a distance。 
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Since Shekure wouldn¨t be leaving her father¨s house for mine�察�and I would 
be moving into the paternal home as bridegroom�察�the bridal procession was 
only fitting。 Naturally�察�I was in no position to bedeck my wealthy friends and 
relatives and have them wait at Shekure¨s front gate mounted on their horses 
as  others  might  have  done。  Even  so�察 �I  invited  two  of  my  childhood  friends 
whom  I¨d  run  into  during  my  six  days  back  in  Istanbul  ��one  had  bee  a 
clerk like myself and the other was running a bath house�� as well as my dear 
barber�察�whose eyes had watered as he wished me happiness during my shave 
and haircut。 Mounted upon my white horse�察�which I¨d been riding that first 
day�察�I knocked at my beloved Shekure¨s gate as if poised to take her to another 
house and another life。 
To  Hayriye�察 �who  opened  the  gate�察 �I  presented  a  generous  tip。  Shekure�察�
dressed in a bright´red wedding gown with pink bridal streamers flowing from 
her  hair  to  her  feet�察 �emerged  amid  cries�察 �sobs�察 �sighs  ��a  woman  scolded  the 
children���察 �outbursts�察 �and  shouts  of  ^May  God  protect  her�察院 �and  gracefully 
mounted  a  second  white  horse  which  we¨d  brought  with  us。  As  a  hand´
drummer and shrill zurna piper�察�kindly arranged by the barber for me at the 
last  minute�察 �began  to  play  a  slow  bride¨s  melody�察 �our  poor�察 �melancholy�察 �yet 
proud procession set out on its way。 
As our horses began to saunter�察�I understood that Shekure�察�with her usual 
cunning�察�had arranged this spectacle for the sake of safeguarding the nuptials。 
Our procession�察�having announced our wedding to the entire neighborhood�察�
even if only at the last moment�察�had essentially secured everyone¨s approval�察�
thereby  neutralizing  any  future  objections  to  our  marriage。  Nevertheless�察�
announcing  that  we  were  on  the  verge  of  marriage�察 �and  having  a  public 
wedding!as  if  to  challenge  our  enemies�察 �Shekure¨s  former  husband  and  his 
family!further endangered the whole affair。 Had it been left to me�察�I¨d have 
held  the  ceremony  in  secret�察 �without  telling  a  soul�察 �without  a  wedding 
celebration�察�I¨d have preferred being her husband first and defending the 
marriage afterward。 
I led the parade astride my fickle white fairy´tale horse�察�and as we moved 
through the neighborhood�察�I nervously watched for Hasan and his men�察�whom 
I  expected  to  ambush  us  from  an  alleyway  or  a  shadowy  courtyard  gate。  I 
noticed  how  young  men�察 �the  elders  of  the  neighborhood  and  strangers 
stopped  and  waved  from  door  fronts�察 �without  pletely  understanding  all 
that was transpiring。 In the small market area we¨d unintentionally entered�察�I 
figured out that Shekure had masterfully activated her grapevine�察�and that her 
divorce   and   marriage   to   me   was   quickly   winning   acceptance   in   the 
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neighborhood。 This was evident from the excitement of the fruit´and´vegetable 
seller�察 �who  without  leaving  his  colorful  quinces�察 �carrots  and  apples  for  too 
long�察�joined us for a few strides shouting ^Praise be to God�察�may He protect 
you  both�察院 �and  from  the  smile  of  the  woeful  shopkeeper  and  from  the 
approving glances of the baker�察�who was having his apprentice scrape away the 
burnt residue in his pans。 Still�察�I was anxious�察�maintaining my vigil against a 
sudden raid�察�or even a word of vulgar heckling。 For this reason�察�I wasn¨t at all 
disturbed by the motion of the crowd of money´seeking children that had 
formed  behind  us  as  we  left  the  bazaar。  I  understood  from  the  smiles  of 
women I glimpsed behind windows�察�bars and shutters that the enthusiasm of 
this noisy throng of children protected and supported us。 
As  I  gazed  at  the  road  along  which  we¨d  advanced  and  were  now�察 �thank 
God�察 �finally  winding  our  way  back  toward  the  house�察 �my  heart  was  with 
Shekure and her sorrow。 Actually�察�it wasn¨t her misfortune in having to wed 
within a day of her father¨s murder that saddened me�察�it was that the wedding 
was  so  unadorned  and  meager。  My  dear  Shekure  was  worthy  of  horses  with 
silver reins and ornamented saddles�察�mounted riders outfitted in sable and silk 
with gold embroidery�察�and hundreds of carriages laden with gifts and dowry�察�
she deserved to lead an endless procession of pasha¨s daughters�察�sultans and 
carriages  full  of  elderly  harem  women  chattering  about  the  extravagances  of 
days bygone。 But Shekure¨s wedding lacked even the four pole bearers to hold 
aloft  the  red  silk  canopy  that  ordinarily  protected  rich  maidens  from  prying 
eyes�察 �for  that  matter�察 �there  wasn¨t  even  one  servant  to  lead  the  procession 
bearing large wedding candles and tree´shaped decorations ornamented with 
fruit�察�gold�察�silver leaf and polished stones。 More than embarrassment�察�I felt a 
sadness that threatened to fill my eyes with tears each time the disrespectful 
hand´drum and zurna players simply stopped playing when our procession got 
swallowed up in crowds of market´goers or servants fetching water from the 
fountain in the square because we had no one clearing the way with shouts of 
^Here es the bride。 ̄ As we were nearing the house�察�I mustered the courage 
to turn in my saddle and gaze at her�察�and was relieved that beneath her pink 
bride¨s  tinsel  and  red  veil�察 �far  from  being  saddened  by  all  these  pitiful 
shortings�察 �she  seemed  hearten

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