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I AM CALLED BLACK 
 
Widowed�察�abandoned and aggrieved�察�my beloved Shekure fled with featherlike 
steps�察�and I stood as if stunned in the stillness of the house of the Hanged Jew�察�
amid the aroma of almonds and dreams of marriage she¨d left in her wake。 I 
was  bewildered�察 �but  my  mind  was  churning  so  fast  it  almost  hurt。  Without 
even  a  chance  to  grieve  properly  over  my  Enishte¨s  death�察 �I  swiftly  returned 
home。 On the one hand�察�a worm of doubt was gnawing at me�此�Was Shekure 
using  me  as  a  pawn  in  a  grand  scheme�察 �was  she  duping  me�拭 �On  the  other 
hand�察�fantasies of a blissful marriage stubbornly played before my eyes。 
After  making  conversation  with  my  landlady  who  interrogated  me  at  the 
front  door  as  to  where  I¨d  gone  and  whence  I  was  ing  at  this  morning 
hour�察 �I  went  to  my  room  and  removed  the  twenty´two  Veian  gold  pieces 
from  the  lining  of  the  sash  I¨d  hidden  in  my  mattress�察 �placing  them  in  my 
money  purse  with  trembling  fingers。  When  I  returned  to  the  street�察 �I  knew 
immediately I¨d see Shekure¨s dark�察�teary�察�troubled eyes for the rest of the day。 
I changed five of the Veian Lions at a perpetually smiling Jewish money 
changer。 Next�察�deep in thought�察�I entered the neighborhood whose name I¨ve 
yet  to  mention  because  I¨m  not  fond  of  it�此 �Yakutlar�察 �where  my  deceased 
Enishte and Shekure�察�along with her children�察�awaited me at their house。 As I 
made  my  way  along  the  streets  almost  running�察 �a  tall  plane  tree  seemed  to 
reproach me for being overjoyed by dreams and plans of marriage on the very 
day my Enishte had passed away。 Next�察�as the ice had melted�察�a street fountain 
hissed into my ear�此 �Don¨t take matters too seriously�察�see to your own affairs 
and your own happiness。 ̄ ^That¨s all fine and good�察院�objected an ill´omened 
black  cat  licking  himself  on  the  corner�察  �but  everybody�察 �yourself  included�察�
suspects you had a hand in your uncle¨s murder。 ̄ 
The cat left off licking himself as I suddenly caught sight of its bewitching 
eyes。  I  don¨t  have  to  tell  you  how  brazen  these  Istanbul  cats  get  when  the 
locals spoil them。 
I found the Imam Effendi�察�whose droopy eyelids and large black eyes gave 
him  a  perpetually  sleepy  look�察 �not  at  his  house�察 �but  in  the  courtyard  of  the 
neighborhood  mosque�察 �and  there  I  asked  him  quite  a  trivial  legal  question�此�
^When is one obligated to testify in court�拭院�I raised my eyebrows as I listened 
to his haughty answer as if I were hearing this information for the first time。 
^Bearing  witness  is  optional  if  other  witnesses  are  present�察院 �explained  the 
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Imam Effendi�察 �but�察�in situations where there was only one witness�察�it is the 
will of God that one bear witness。 ̄ 
^That¨s  just  the  predicament  I  find  myself  in  now�察院 �I  said�察 �taking  up  the 
conversation。  ^In  a  situation  everyone  knows  about�察 �all  the  witnesses  have 
shirked their responsibilities and avoided going to court with the excuse that 
 ̄it¨s only voluntary�察亜�and as a result the pressing concerns of those I¨m trying 
to help are being pletely disregarded。 ̄ 
^Well�察院�said the Imam Effendi�察 �why don¨t you loosen your purse´strings a 
little more�拭院�
I  took  out  my  pouch  and  showed  him  the  Veian  gold  pieces  huddled 
within�此 �The  broad  space  of  the  mosque  courtyard�察 �the  face  of  the  preacher�察�
everything  was  suddenly  illuminated  by  the  glimmer  of  gold。  He  asked  me 
what my dilemma was all about。 
I explained who I was。 ^Enishte Effendi is ill�察院�I confided。 ^Before he dies�察�he 
wants his daughter¨s widowhood certified and an alimony to be instituted。 ̄ 
I didn¨t even have to mention the proxy of the ┨sk┨dar judge。 The Imam 
Effendi understood at once and said the entire neighborhood had long been 
troubled over the fate of hapless Shekure�察�adding that the situation had already 
persisted  too  long。  Instead  of  searching  for  a  second  witness  required  for  a 
legal separation at the door of the ┨sk┨dar judge�察�the Imam Effendi suggested 
his brother。 Now�察�if I were to offer an additional gold piece to the brother�察�who 
lived in the neighborhood and was familiar with the predicament of Shekure 
and her darling children�察�I¨d be doing a good pious turn。 After all�察�for only two 
gold coins the Imam Effendi was giving me a deal on the second witness。 We 
immediately agreed。 The Imam Effendi went to fetch his brother。 
The rest of our day rather resembled the ^cat´and´mouse ̄ stories that I¨d 
watched  storytellers  in  Aleppo  coffeehouses  act  out。  Because  of  all  the 
adventure and trickery�察�such stories written up as narrative poems and bound 
were  never  taken  seriously  even  if  presented  in  fine  calligraphy�察 �that  is�察 �they 
were  never  illustrated。  I�察 �on  the  other  hand�察 �was  quite  pleased  to  divide  our 
daylong adventure into four scenes�察�imagining each in the illustrated pages of 
my mind。 
In the first scene�察�the miniaturist ought to depict us amid mustachioed and 
muscled oarsmen�察�forging our way across the blue Bosphorus toward ┨sk┨dar 
in the four´oared red longboat we¨d boarded in Unkapan�拭� The preacher and 
his  skinny  dark´plexioned  brother�察 �pleased  with  the  surprise  voyage�察 �are 
engaging the oarsmen in friendly chatter。 Meanwhile�察�amid blithe dreams of 
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marriage that play ceaselessly before my eyes�察�I stare deep into the waters of 
the Bosphorus�察�flowing clearer than usual on this sunny winter morning�察�on 
guard for an ominous sign within its currents。 I¨m afraid�察�for example�察�that I 
might see the wreck of a pirate ship below。 Thus�察�no matter how joyously the 
miniaturist  colors  the  sea  and  clouds�察 �he  ought  to  include  something 
equivalent  to  the  darkness  of  my  fears  and  as  intense  as  my  dreams  of 
happiness!a terrifying´looking fish�察�for example!in the depths of the water 
so the reader of my adventure won¨t assume all is rosy。 
Our second picture ought to show the palaces of sultans�察�the meetings of 
the  Divan  Council  of  State�察 �the  reception  of  European  ambassadors�察 �and 
detailed  and  carefully  posed  crowded  interiors  of  a  subtlety  worthy  of 
Bihzad�察 �that  is�察 �the  picture  ought  to  partake  of  playful  tricks  and  irony。 
Thereby�察 �while  the  Kadi  Effendi  apparently  makes  an  open´handed  ^halt ̄ 
gesture indicating ^never ̄ or ^no ̄ to my bribe�察�with his other hand he ought 
to  be  shown  obligingly  pocketing  my  Veian  gold  coins�察 �and  the  ultimate 
result of this bribe should be depicted in the same picture�此�Shahap Effendi�察�the 
Shaf┨  proxy  presiding  in  place  of  the  ┨sk┨dar  judge。  The  simultaneous 
depiction  of  sequential  events  could  only  be  achieved  through  an  intelligent 
miniaturist¨s  cunning  facility  in  page  position。  Thus�察 �when  the  observer�察�
who  first  sees  me  giving  a  bribe�察 �notices  elsewhere  in  the  painting  that  the 
man sitting cross´legged on the judge¨s cushion is the proxy�察�he¨ll realize�察�even 
if he hasn¨t read the story�察�that the honorable judge has temporarily given up 
his office so his proxy might grant Shekure a divorce。 
The  third  illustration  should  show  the  same  scene�察 �but  this  time  the  wall 
ornamentation should be darker and rendered in the Chinese style�察�the curly 
branches  being  more  intricate  and  dense�察 �and  colorful  clouds  should  appear 
above  the  judge¨s  proxy  so  the  chicanery  in  the  story  might  be  apparent。 
Though  the  Imam  Effendi  and  his  brother  have  actually  testified  separately 
before the judge¨s proxy�察�in the illustration they are shown together explaining 
how  the  husband  of  anguished  Shekure  hasn¨t  returned  from  war  for  four 
years�察�how she is in a state of destitution without a husband to look after her�察�
how her two fatherless children are perpetually in tears and hungry�察�how there 
is no prospect for remarriage because she¨s still considered married�察�and how 
in  this  state  she  can¨t  even  receive  a  loan  without  permission  from  her 
husband。 They¨re so convincing that even a man as deaf as a stone would grant 
her a divorce through a cascade of tears。 The heartless proxy�察�however�察�having 
none of it�察�asks about Shekure¨s legal guardian。 After a moment of hesitation�察�I 
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immediately interrupt�察�declaring that her esteemed father�察�who has served as 
herald and ambassador for Our Sultan�察�is still alive。 
^Until he testifies in court�察�I¨ll never grant her a divorce� 院�said the proxy。 
Thereupon�察 �thoroughly  flustered�察 �I  explained  how  my  Enishte  Effendi  was 
ill�察�bed´ridden and struggling for his life�察�how his last wish to God was to see 
his daughter divorced�察�and how I was his representative。 
^What  does  she  want  with  a  divorce�拭院 �asked  the  proxy。  ^Why  would  a 
dying  man  want  to  see  his  daughter  divorced  from  her  husband  who¨s  long 
vanished  at  war  anyway�拭 �Listen�察 �I¨d  understand  if  there  were  a 

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