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Even here in the lodge�察�they were loath to separate from one another。
^We can safely take refuge here for days。 ̄
^We worry�察院�Black said�察 �that the person we should fear is perhaps in our
very midst。 ̄
^I�察�too�察�grow anxious�察院�I said。 ^For I have heard such rumors as well。 ̄
There were rumors�察 �spreading from the officers of the Imperial Guard to
the division of miniaturists�察�claiming that the mystery about the murderer of
Elegant Effendi and late Enishte was solved�此�He was one of us who¨d labored
over that book。
Black inquired as to how many pictures I¨d drawn for Enishte¨s book。
^The first one I made was Satan。 It was of the variety of underground
demon mon to the old masters in the workshops of the Whitesheep。 The
storyteller and I were of the same Sufi path�察 �that¨s why I made the two
dervishes。 I was the one who suggested to Enishte that he include them in his
book�察�convincing him that there was a special place for these dervishes in the
lands of the Ottomans。 ̄
^Is that all�拭院�asked Black。
When I told him�察 �Yes�察�that¨s all�察院�he went to the door with the superior air
of a master who caught an apprentice stealing�察�he brought in a roll of paper
untouched by the rain�察�and placed it before us three artists like a mother cat
bringing a wounded bird to her kittens。
I recognized the pages while they were still under his arm�此 �They were the
illustrations I¨d rescued from the coffeehouse during the raid。 I didn¨t deign to
ask how these men had entered my house and located them。 Nevertheless�察�
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Butterfly�察�Stork and I each placidly owned up to the pictures we made for the
storyteller�察�may he rest in peace。 Afterward�察�only the horse�察�an exquisite horse�察�
remained unclaimed off to the side�察�its head lowered。 Believe me�察�I didn¨t even
realize that a horse had been drawn。
^You weren¨t the one who made this horse�拭院 �said Black like a teacher
holding a switch。
^I wasn¨t�察院�I said。
^What about the one in my Enishte¨s book�拭院�
^I didn¨t make that one either。 ̄
^Based on the style of the horse�察�however�察�it¨s been determined that you¨re
the one who drew it�察院�he said。 ^Furthermore�察�it was Master Osman who came
to this conclusion。 ̄
^But I have no style whatsoever�察院�I said。 ^I¨m not saying this out of pride to
counter the latest tastes。 Neither am I saying so to prove my innocence。 For
me�察�having a style would be worse than being a murderer。 ̄
^You have a distinct quality that distinguishes you from the old masters and
the others�察院�said Black。
I smiled at him。 He started to relate things that I¨m sure you all know by
now。 I listened intently to how Our Sultan�察 �in consultation with the Head
Treasurer�察�sought a solution to the murders�察�to the matter of Master Osman¨s
three days�察�to the ^courtesan method�察院�to the peculiarity in the noses of the
horses and to Black¨s miraculous admittance to the Royal Private Quarters for
the sake of actually examining those superlative books。 There are moments in
all our lives when we realize�察�even as we experience them�察�that we are living
through events we will never forget�察 �even long afterward。 A melancholy rain
was falling。 As if upset by the rain�察 �Butterfly mournfully gripped his dagger。
Olive�察 �the backside of whose armor was white with flour�察 �was courageously
forging into the heart of the dervish lodge�察�lamp in hand。 These master artists�察�
whose shadows roamed the walls like ghosts�察 �were my brethren�察 �and how I
loved them� �I was delighted to be a miniaturist。
^Could you appreciate your good fortune as you gazed at the great works of
the old masters for days on end with Master Osman at your side�拭院 �I asked
Black。 ^Did he kiss you�拭�Did he caress your handsome face�拭�Did he hold your
hand�拭�Were you awed by his talent and knowledge�拭院�
^There among the great works of the old masters he showed me how you
had a style�察院�said Black。 ^He taught me how the hidden fault of  ̄style` isn¨t
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something the artist selects of his own volition�察 �but is determined by the
artist¨s past and his forgotten memories。 He also showed me how these secret
faults�察�weaknesses and defects�察�at one time such a source of shame they were
concealed so we wouldn¨t be estranged from the old masters�察�will henceforth
emerge to be praised as ^personal characteristics¨ or  ̄style�察亜 �because the
European masters have spread them over the world。 Henceforth�察 �thanks to
fools who take pride in their own shortings�察 �the world will be a more
colorful and more stupid and�察�of course�察�a much more imperfect place。 ̄
The fact that Black confidently believed in what he said proved that he was
one of the new breed of fools。
^Was Master Osman able to explain why�察 �for years�察 �I drew hundreds of
horses with regular nostrils in Our Sultan¨s books�拭院�I asked。
^It was due to the love and beatings he gave all of you in your childhood。
Because he was both father and beloved to you all�察 �he doesn¨t see that he
associates all of you with himself and each of you with the others。 He didn¨t
want you each to have a style of your own�察 �he wanted the royal atelier as a
whole to have a style。 Because of the awesome shadow he cast over all of you�察�
you forgot what came from within�察 �the imperfections�察 �the elements and
differences that fell outside the confines of standard forms。 Only when you
painted for other books and other pages�察�which Master Osman¨s eyes would
never see�察�did you draw the horse that had lain within you all those years。 ̄
^My mother�察�may she rest in peace�察�was more intelligent than my father�察院�I
said。 ^One night I was at home�察�in tears�察�determined never again to return to
the workshop because I was daunted not only by Master Osman¨s beatings�察�
but by those of the other harsh and irritable masters and by those of the
division head who always intimidated us with a ruler。 In consolation�察 �my
dearly departed mother advised me that there were two types of people in the
world�此�those who were cowed and crushed by their childhood beatings�察�forever
downtrodden�察�she said�察�because the beatings had the desired effect of killing
the inner devils�察�and those fortunate ones for whom the beatings frightened
and tamed the devil within without killing him off。 Though the latter group
would never forget these painful childhood memories!she¨d warned me not
to tell this to anybody!the beatings would in time enable them to develop
cunning�察 �to fathom the unknown�察 �to make friends�察 �to identify enemies�察 �to
sense plots being hatched behind their backs and�察 �let me hasten to add�察 �to
paint better than anyone else。 Because I wasn¨t able to draw the branches of a
tree harmoniously�察 �Master Osman would slap me so hard that�察 �amid bitter
tears�察�forests would burgeon before me。 After angrily striking me in the head
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because I couldn¨t see the errors at the bottoms of pages�察�he lovingly took up a
mirror and placed it before the page so I could see the work as if for the first
time。 Then pressing his cheek to mine�察�he so lovingly identified the mistakes
that magically appeared in the mirror image of the picture that I never forgot
either the love or the ritual。 The morning after a night spent weeping in my
bed�察�my pride violated because he chastised me with a ruler before everyone�察�
he came and kissed my arms so tenderly that I passionately knew I¨d one day
bee a legendary miniaturist。 Nay�察�it was not I who drew that horse。 ̄
^We�察院 �Black was referring to Stork and himself�察 �will search the dervish
house for the last picture which was stolen by the accursed man who
murdered my Enishte。 Did you ever see that last picture�拭院�
^It is nothing that could be accepted by Our Sultan�察 �illuminators like us
bound to the old masters or by Muslims bound to their faith�察院�I said and fell
silent。
My statement made him more eager。 He and Stork began their search of the
premises�察�turning the whole place upside down。 A few times�察�simply to make
their work easier�察 �I went to them。 In one of the dervish cells with a leaky
ceiling�察 �I pointed out the hole in the floor so they wouldn¨t fall and could
search it if they so desired。 I gave them the large key to the small room in
which the sheikh lived thirty years ago�察 �before the adherents of this lodge
joined up with the Bektashis and dispersed。 They entered eagerly�察 �but when
they saw that an entire wall was missing and the room was open to the rain�察�
they didn¨t even bother to search it。
It pleased me that Butterfly wasn¨t with them�察�but if evidence implicating
me were found�察�he�察�too�察�would join their ranks。 Stork was of the same mind as
Black�察�who was afraid that Master Osman would turn us over to the torturers�察�
and maintained that we must su