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Even here in the lodge�察�they were loath to separate from one another。 
^We can safely take refuge here for days。 ̄ 
^We worry�察院�Black said�察 �that the person we should fear is perhaps in our 
very midst。 ̄ 
^I�察�too�察�grow anxious�察院�I said。 ^For I have heard such rumors as well。 ̄ 
There  were  rumors�察 �spreading  from  the  officers  of  the  Imperial  Guard  to 
the division of miniaturists�察�claiming that the mystery about the murderer of 
Elegant Effendi and late Enishte was solved�此�He was one of us who¨d labored 
over that book。 
Black inquired as to how many pictures I¨d drawn for Enishte¨s book。 
^The  first  one  I  made  was  Satan。  It  was  of  the  variety  of  underground 
demon mon to the old masters in the workshops of the Whitesheep。 The 
storyteller  and  I  were  of  the  same  Sufi  path�察 �that¨s  why  I  made  the  two 
dervishes。 I was the one who suggested to Enishte that he include them in his 
book�察�convincing him that there was a special place for these dervishes in the 
lands of the Ottomans。 ̄ 
^Is that all�拭院�asked Black。 
When I told him�察 �Yes�察�that¨s all�察院�he went to the door with the superior air 
of a master who caught an apprentice stealing�察�he brought in a roll of paper 
untouched by the rain�察�and placed it before us three artists like a mother cat 
bringing a wounded bird to her kittens。 
I  recognized  the  pages  while  they  were  still  under  his  arm�此 �They  were  the 
illustrations I¨d rescued from the coffeehouse during the raid。 I didn¨t deign to 
ask  how  these  men  had  entered  my  house  and  located  them。  Nevertheless�察�
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Butterfly�察�Stork and I each placidly owned up to the pictures we made for the 
storyteller�察�may he rest in peace。 Afterward�察�only the horse�察�an exquisite horse�察�
remained unclaimed off to the side�察�its head lowered。 Believe me�察�I didn¨t even 
realize that a horse had been drawn。 
^You  weren¨t  the  one  who  made  this  horse�拭院 �said  Black  like  a  teacher 
holding a switch。 
^I wasn¨t�察院�I said。 
^What about the one in my Enishte¨s book�拭院�
^I didn¨t make that one either。 ̄ 
^Based on the style of the horse�察�however�察�it¨s been determined that you¨re 
the one who drew it�察院�he said。 ^Furthermore�察�it was Master Osman who came 
to this conclusion。 ̄ 
^But I have no style whatsoever�察院�I said。 ^I¨m not saying this out of pride to 
counter the latest tastes。 Neither am I saying so to prove my innocence。 For 
me�察�having a style would be worse than being a murderer。 ̄ 
^You have a distinct quality that distinguishes you from the old masters and 
the others�察院�said Black。 
I smiled at him。 He started to relate things that I¨m sure you all know by 
now。  I  listened  intently  to  how  Our  Sultan�察 �in  consultation  with  the  Head 
Treasurer�察�sought a solution to the murders�察�to the matter of Master Osman¨s 
three days�察�to the ^courtesan method�察院�to the peculiarity in the noses of the 
horses and to Black¨s miraculous admittance to the Royal Private Quarters for 
the sake of actually examining those superlative books。 There are moments in 
all our lives when we realize�察�even as  we experience them�察�that we are living 
through  events  we  will  never  forget�察 �even  long  afterward。  A  melancholy  rain 
was  falling。  As  if  upset  by  the  rain�察 �Butterfly  mournfully  gripped  his  dagger。 
Olive�察 �the  backside  of  whose  armor  was  white  with  flour�察 �was  courageously 
forging into the heart of the dervish lodge�察�lamp in hand。 These master artists�察�
whose  shadows  roamed  the  walls  like  ghosts�察 �were  my  brethren�察 �and  how  I 
loved them� �I was delighted to be a miniaturist。 
^Could you appreciate your good fortune as you gazed at the great works of 
the  old  masters  for  days  on  end  with  Master  Osman  at  your  side�拭院 �I  asked 
Black。 ^Did he kiss you�拭�Did he caress your handsome face�拭�Did he hold your 
hand�拭�Were you awed by his talent and knowledge�拭院�
^There among the great works of the old masters he showed me how you 
had a style�察院�said Black。 ^He taught me how the hidden fault of   ̄style` isn¨t 
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something  the  artist  selects  of  his  own  volition�察 �but  is  determined  by  the 
artist¨s past and his forgotten memories。 He also showed me how these secret 
faults�察�weaknesses and defects�察�at one time such a source of shame they were 
concealed so we wouldn¨t be estranged from the old masters�察�will henceforth 
emerge  to  be  praised  as  ^personal  characteristics¨  or   ̄style�察亜 �because  the 
European  masters  have  spread  them  over  the  world。  Henceforth�察 �thanks  to 
fools  who  take  pride  in  their  own  shortings�察 �the  world  will  be  a  more 
colorful and more stupid and�察�of course�察�a much more imperfect place。 ̄ 
The fact that Black confidently believed in what he said proved that he was 
one of the new breed of fools。 
^Was  Master  Osman  able  to  explain  why�察 �for  years�察 �I  drew  hundreds  of 
horses with regular nostrils in Our Sultan¨s books�拭院�I asked。 
^It was due to the love and beatings he gave all of you in your childhood。 
Because  he  was  both  father  and  beloved  to  you  all�察 �he  doesn¨t  see  that  he 
associates all of you with himself and each of you with the others。 He didn¨t 
want  you  each  to  have  a  style  of  your  own�察 �he  wanted  the  royal  atelier  as  a 
whole to have a style。 Because of the awesome shadow he cast over all of you�察�
you  forgot  what  came  from  within�察 �the  imperfections�察 �the  elements  and 
differences  that  fell  outside  the  confines  of  standard  forms。  Only  when  you 
painted for other books and other pages�察�which Master Osman¨s eyes would 
never see�察�did you draw the horse that had lain within you all those years。 ̄ 
^My mother�察�may she rest in peace�察�was more intelligent than my father�察院�I 
said。 ^One night I was at home�察�in tears�察�determined never again to return to 
the  workshop  because  I  was  daunted  not  only  by  Master  Osman¨s  beatings�察�
but  by  those  of  the  other  harsh  and  irritable  masters  and  by  those  of  the 
division  head  who  always  intimidated  us  with  a  ruler。  In  consolation�察 �my 
dearly departed mother advised me that there were two types of people in the 
world�此�those who were cowed and crushed by their childhood beatings�察�forever 
downtrodden�察�she said�察�because the beatings had the desired effect of killing 
the inner devils�察�and those fortunate ones for whom the beatings frightened 
and tamed the devil within without killing him off。 Though the latter group 
would never forget these painful childhood memories!she¨d warned me not 
to tell this to anybody!the beatings would in time enable them to develop 
cunning�察 �to  fathom  the  unknown�察 �to  make  friends�察 �to  identify  enemies�察 �to 
sense  plots  being  hatched  behind  their  backs  and�察 �let  me  hasten  to  add�察 �to 
paint better than anyone else。 Because I wasn¨t able to draw the branches of a 
tree  harmoniously�察 �Master  Osman  would  slap  me  so  hard  that�察 �amid  bitter 
tears�察�forests would burgeon before me。 After angrily striking me in the head 
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because I couldn¨t see the errors at the bottoms of pages�察�he lovingly took up a 
mirror and placed it before the page so I could see the work as if for the first 
time。 Then pressing his cheek to mine�察�he so lovingly identified the mistakes 
that magically appeared in the mirror image of the picture that I never forgot 
either the love or the ritual。 The morning after a night spent weeping in my 
bed�察�my pride violated because he chastised me with a ruler before everyone�察�
he came and kissed my arms so tenderly that I passionately knew I¨d one day 
bee a legendary miniaturist。 Nay�察�it was not I who drew that horse。 ̄ 
^We�察院 �Black  was  referring  to  Stork  and  himself�察  �will  search  the  dervish 
house  for  the  last  picture  which  was  stolen  by  the  accursed  man  who 
murdered my Enishte。 Did you ever see that last picture�拭院�
^It  is  nothing  that  could  be  accepted  by  Our  Sultan�察 �illuminators  like  us 
bound to the old masters or by Muslims bound to their faith�察院�I said and fell 
silent。 
My statement made him more eager。 He and Stork began their search of the 
premises�察�turning the whole place upside down。 A few times�察�simply to make 
their  work  easier�察 �I  went  to  them。  In  one  of  the  dervish  cells  with  a  leaky 
ceiling�察 �I  pointed  out  the  hole  in  the  floor  so  they  wouldn¨t  fall  and  could 
search  it  if  they  so  desired。  I  gave  them  the  large  key  to  the  small  room  in 
which  the  sheikh  lived  thirty  years  ago�察 �before  the  adherents  of  this  lodge 
joined  up  with  the  Bektashis  and  dispersed。  They  entered  eagerly�察 �but  when 
they saw that an entire wall was missing and the room was open to the rain�察�
they didn¨t even bother to search it。 
It pleased me that Butterfly wasn¨t with them�察�but if evidence implicating 
me were found�察�he�察�too�察�would join their ranks。 Stork was of the same mind as 
Black�察�who was afraid that Master Osman would turn us over to the torturers�察�
and  maintained  that  we  must  su

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